Dilbert. He hears me.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Time for vacation
Oh jeez. My mind... is sooooo filled to the brim..... with everyday crap.... that I'm so... so... so... exhausted. Sometimes I have no idea what my job is. I do so many random things. I feel like I do a bit of everything, but don't do anything. It's crazy.
I think because of the constant switching between tasks, my brain gets tired a lot. It's like..oh.. where are we with this? Where are we with that? What, there's a problem here? Why isn't it fixed? Because we're waiting for THAT? Why didn't anyone bring that up earlier?
Communication is soooooo shitty.
There's not enough people to do things.
I really can't wait for my vacation. I just need to take care of myself. Sleep in, do nothing, focus on getting some new clothes, maybe change my hair a bit, take care of my skin.... we're getting old. It's not going to stay this way forever!
Can't wait to turn on my OOO message in about 12 minutes. Time for me to go incognito.... muahahaha. I'm going to be traveling, so I'll get about 15-16 hours of peace. Thank you, Buddha！
I think because of the constant switching between tasks, my brain gets tired a lot. It's like..oh.. where are we with this? Where are we with that? What, there's a problem here? Why isn't it fixed? Because we're waiting for THAT? Why didn't anyone bring that up earlier?
Communication is soooooo shitty.
There's not enough people to do things.
I really can't wait for my vacation. I just need to take care of myself. Sleep in, do nothing, focus on getting some new clothes, maybe change my hair a bit, take care of my skin.... we're getting old. It's not going to stay this way forever!
Can't wait to turn on my OOO message in about 12 minutes. Time for me to go incognito.... muahahaha. I'm going to be traveling, so I'll get about 15-16 hours of peace. Thank you, Buddha！
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Fake people and spoiled kids
My masseuse told me today about her spoiled son. She works hard everyday and is exhausted each night and even though she lives alone in Shanghai she prefers the solace versus her family life back in Chengdu.
Good masseuse only make about 3000rmb a month. They get a % off the fee a customer pays when that customer specifically asks for them. So she would get roughly 10rmb for every 100rmb her customer spent. This is why they try to sell you 1.5 hour to 2 hour packages, etc, because they get a larger % of what you spend.
Anyway, so she's alone in Shanghai and her husband, their son, and her parents are all living in an apartment in Sichuan. Her husband doesn't work. Occasionally he'll drive around as a taxi. Her son is 16 and wants her to buy him name brands. When she went back 2 weeks ago, she brought him a jacket and shoes that she bought for him. But he said they weren't good enough because the brand wasn't high class. So he asked her where she bought it, and she named a street off Shanghai. And he asked her how much was it, and she said 200rmb. Then he asked her for the receipt because he wanted proof she went there and bought it.
What a little spoiled brat. I would have slapped that little fugger straight across the face. With my broom. I don't like kids very much. Correction: I don't like undisciplined kids.
But how is she supposed to discipline him anyways? She lives in Shanghai. Her husband is a slacker. Her father is old and sick. The little money she makes she spends on them, and her father's hospital bills are costly. She went back for 2 weeks and spent over 10,000rmb. That's about 6 months worth of savings. This is why she prefers to stay in Shanghai and hates going back to Sichuan.
Her bike broke a few months ago so I gave her mine for free. I'm glad I helped her out. Maybe that's why shes such a good masseuse to me. :)
My next thought today focuses on fake people. I'm not too good at being fake. Maybe that's why I offend people. But I don't care. I'm not going to tell you your kids are good looking when they're not. I won't tell your kids they're ugly to their faces because I don't want to be the catalyst for their future coloumbine endeavors. So I would rather just not say anything if you showed me a picture of your kids asking if they're cute. Apparently to most parents, it means you think they're ugly. Which I do. But I didn't say anything.
Anyway what am I talking about.
So yeah, I know a lot of people who don't really care about you but they act like you're the most important thing in the world. Do people not see through that? I met some girl before and talked to her for about 5 seconds. A few weeks later I saw her again and she acted like she missed me soooooo much. No she didn't. She doesn't even know what I do for a living or what my last name is. I can't stand that.
I can't tell you anything that I don't believe in. So if your hair is ugly I'm not going to say it looks good. If I like you and I know you well I might not be so blunt about it. Instead of, "Yeah.. its pretty ugly," I might say, "Well, I've seen you look a lot better." Not much difference but at least one has less of an edge.
So when I see people that are too eager to see other people I start wondering if its for real or not. And when the other person really likes it I wonder why they can't see through the fakeness. Really fake people make me uncomfortable, especially because I don't really talk to people unless I feel we have something in common. I'm not one to make small talk so I don't get it. Usually geeks are easy to talk to because I know we have some sort of video game we like. Or some kind of geek movie. But with non-geeks.... I dunno. Maybe I'm just an antisocial dork.
Good masseuse only make about 3000rmb a month. They get a % off the fee a customer pays when that customer specifically asks for them. So she would get roughly 10rmb for every 100rmb her customer spent. This is why they try to sell you 1.5 hour to 2 hour packages, etc, because they get a larger % of what you spend.
Anyway, so she's alone in Shanghai and her husband, their son, and her parents are all living in an apartment in Sichuan. Her husband doesn't work. Occasionally he'll drive around as a taxi. Her son is 16 and wants her to buy him name brands. When she went back 2 weeks ago, she brought him a jacket and shoes that she bought for him. But he said they weren't good enough because the brand wasn't high class. So he asked her where she bought it, and she named a street off Shanghai. And he asked her how much was it, and she said 200rmb. Then he asked her for the receipt because he wanted proof she went there and bought it.
What a little spoiled brat. I would have slapped that little fugger straight across the face. With my broom. I don't like kids very much. Correction: I don't like undisciplined kids.
But how is she supposed to discipline him anyways? She lives in Shanghai. Her husband is a slacker. Her father is old and sick. The little money she makes she spends on them, and her father's hospital bills are costly. She went back for 2 weeks and spent over 10,000rmb. That's about 6 months worth of savings. This is why she prefers to stay in Shanghai and hates going back to Sichuan.
Her bike broke a few months ago so I gave her mine for free. I'm glad I helped her out. Maybe that's why shes such a good masseuse to me. :)
My next thought today focuses on fake people. I'm not too good at being fake. Maybe that's why I offend people. But I don't care. I'm not going to tell you your kids are good looking when they're not. I won't tell your kids they're ugly to their faces because I don't want to be the catalyst for their future coloumbine endeavors. So I would rather just not say anything if you showed me a picture of your kids asking if they're cute. Apparently to most parents, it means you think they're ugly. Which I do. But I didn't say anything.
Anyway what am I talking about.
So yeah, I know a lot of people who don't really care about you but they act like you're the most important thing in the world. Do people not see through that? I met some girl before and talked to her for about 5 seconds. A few weeks later I saw her again and she acted like she missed me soooooo much. No she didn't. She doesn't even know what I do for a living or what my last name is. I can't stand that.
I can't tell you anything that I don't believe in. So if your hair is ugly I'm not going to say it looks good. If I like you and I know you well I might not be so blunt about it. Instead of, "Yeah.. its pretty ugly," I might say, "Well, I've seen you look a lot better." Not much difference but at least one has less of an edge.
So when I see people that are too eager to see other people I start wondering if its for real or not. And when the other person really likes it I wonder why they can't see through the fakeness. Really fake people make me uncomfortable, especially because I don't really talk to people unless I feel we have something in common. I'm not one to make small talk so I don't get it. Usually geeks are easy to talk to because I know we have some sort of video game we like. Or some kind of geek movie. But with non-geeks.... I dunno. Maybe I'm just an antisocial dork.
Meh.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
2NE1's fashion makes me faint
I love a particular style of fashion, and 2NE1 is exactly the style that I love. I LOVE IT. Sometimes I feel like fainting when I see their style. omg. I'm in love.
CL's fashion in this performance is SO CRAZY. I LOVE IT!!! /SCREAM
Big Bang is hugely popular in Japan starting last year. Like, insanely popular. I am almost 100% sure that its because Japanese women are preferring more manly men. Arashi? Kat-tun? News? Way too girly. Especially since birth rate is dropping in Japan and many women are staying single longer since they have more education and make more money, leaving their socially awkward men left to marry their NDS's. Stronger men is what they're looking for.
It's interesting how they're so huge in Japan, and one of the main things they have is charisma and individual personalities. I was reading the Japanese comments on youtube for their live performances in Japan, they all say the same thing: "Japan's Idols lose to Big Bang, we don't need them around anymore."
Reasons why?
1) Big Bang is fun, whereas most Japanese idols are more reserved, afraid to show their true personalities
2) Big Bang can dance, having been trained professionally for years
3) Most boy bands in Japan are born from Johnny's Entertainment, and it's widely known that "Johnny" himself is super duper gay. Therefore all the boybands look effeminate, with girly dance moves, hair, and clothes
4) All the "manly" boy bands copy African American hip hop, most just dress like that and have no charisma.
It's been like this for years, no wonder Big Bang can just debut over there and take over the market by storm. This also rings true for the girl bands. Besides the fact that AKB48 is hugely popular (thanks pedo salarymen), 2NE1 is about to debut and probably win over a huge share. I wouldn't be surprised if they get a ton of female fans from Japan, especially since they sing about being stronger women. They're one of the most popular and charismatic girl groups in Korea right now, if not #1.
This big export of KPOP to Japan is so popular and successful that its crazy. Almost more than half of the top acts right now are from Korea. What are you going to do with your talent, Japan? If they were smart, they'd start getting some more realistic artists, instead of the ones that just dress cute, african american, or "rock." The style of their artists are so old and 3 years ago. Which is probably why KPOP basically took over.
hiroak86
5 months ago 32
日本のアイドルはもういらない。ダンスヴォーカルはK-POPに は敵わない。
ryo600
6 months ago 11
おーい、日本負けてるぞー
やっぱあれだけやられたら
日本のアイドル達は悔しいでしょうね。
ビッベンはアイドルというくくりではないけれどもさ
CL's fashion in this performance is SO CRAZY. I LOVE IT!!! /SCREAM
Here's the video:
CL -- you're so fierce. I love you.
Big Bang is hugely popular in Japan starting last year. Like, insanely popular. I am almost 100% sure that its because Japanese women are preferring more manly men. Arashi? Kat-tun? News? Way too girly. Especially since birth rate is dropping in Japan and many women are staying single longer since they have more education and make more money, leaving their socially awkward men left to marry their NDS's. Stronger men is what they're looking for.
It's interesting how they're so huge in Japan, and one of the main things they have is charisma and individual personalities. I was reading the Japanese comments on youtube for their live performances in Japan, they all say the same thing: "Japan's Idols lose to Big Bang, we don't need them around anymore."
Reasons why?
1) Big Bang is fun, whereas most Japanese idols are more reserved, afraid to show their true personalities
2) Big Bang can dance, having been trained professionally for years
3) Most boy bands in Japan are born from Johnny's Entertainment, and it's widely known that "Johnny" himself is super duper gay. Therefore all the boybands look effeminate, with girly dance moves, hair, and clothes
4) All the "manly" boy bands copy African American hip hop, most just dress like that and have no charisma.
It's been like this for years, no wonder Big Bang can just debut over there and take over the market by storm. This also rings true for the girl bands. Besides the fact that AKB48 is hugely popular (thanks pedo salarymen), 2NE1 is about to debut and probably win over a huge share. I wouldn't be surprised if they get a ton of female fans from Japan, especially since they sing about being stronger women. They're one of the most popular and charismatic girl groups in Korea right now, if not #1.
This big export of KPOP to Japan is so popular and successful that its crazy. Almost more than half of the top acts right now are from Korea. What are you going to do with your talent, Japan? If they were smart, they'd start getting some more realistic artists, instead of the ones that just dress cute, african american, or "rock." The style of their artists are so old and 3 years ago. Which is probably why KPOP basically took over.
hiroak86
5 months ago 32
日本のアイドルはもういらない。ダンスヴォーカルはK-POPに は敵わない。
ryo600
6 months ago 11
おーい、日本負けてるぞー
やっぱあれだけやられたら
日本のアイドル達は悔しいでしょうね。
ビッベンはアイドルというくくりではないけれどもさ
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Piles and Piles of....
excel sheets! I guess since they're digital you can't really get stuck underneath them but I sure as hell feel like I am. Sometimes I find myself updating the same status over and over to the same group of people in different emails. Why not just read the other one? Or... why do you need an update...EVERYDAY? I think every 2-3 days is good enough, maybe 2x a week.... why? why? why?
There are too many meetings. Meetings that I sit there and start looking at my nails, wondering if I should wake up early for the rest of the week and go to the gym, or wondering if I should go get a massage after work. When the meetings make your mind wander --- its an inefficient meeting.
People in Asia just looooooove to discuss. Discuss discuss discuss. DURING meetings. Look. The meeting is for a decision to be made. Not a discussion about the decision that hasn't been made. The discussion part happens BEFORE the decision part, so that a decision CAN be pulled out of that mass of random digression.
So. I know Americans in Asian meetings go crazy because nothing is ever done. All the discussion happens, people are afraid to make a decision, and the decision is made somewhere later in a smaller meeting or on a smaller email chain with actual power to make a decision. So why even bother to have a meeting for 2 hours (supposed to be 1 hour) discussing stuff you probably will not make a decision on....?
This happens in Asia, all the time. Asians just loooove to not take responsibility for any action, or not step on anyones toes if they make a decision (Japan). Man. Meetings in Asia suck.
I miss meetings in the US. Short, sweet, to the point, and done when the 30 minutes are up.
ugh.
Today all my coworker and I did was chat on MSN during the meeting. We had no idea what it was about after they stopped speaking in English. I could understand all of it but I'm not going to listen since its a bunch of digressions and philosophy. Also, most of the important decisions are made in English. So. If its being discussed not in English, chances are there is no one important enough there to make a decision. :P
There are too many meetings. Meetings that I sit there and start looking at my nails, wondering if I should wake up early for the rest of the week and go to the gym, or wondering if I should go get a massage after work. When the meetings make your mind wander --- its an inefficient meeting.
People in Asia just looooooove to discuss. Discuss discuss discuss. DURING meetings. Look. The meeting is for a decision to be made. Not a discussion about the decision that hasn't been made. The discussion part happens BEFORE the decision part, so that a decision CAN be pulled out of that mass of random digression.
So. I know Americans in Asian meetings go crazy because nothing is ever done. All the discussion happens, people are afraid to make a decision, and the decision is made somewhere later in a smaller meeting or on a smaller email chain with actual power to make a decision. So why even bother to have a meeting for 2 hours (supposed to be 1 hour) discussing stuff you probably will not make a decision on....?
This happens in Asia, all the time. Asians just loooove to not take responsibility for any action, or not step on anyones toes if they make a decision (Japan). Man. Meetings in Asia suck.
I miss meetings in the US. Short, sweet, to the point, and done when the 30 minutes are up.
ugh.
Today all my coworker and I did was chat on MSN during the meeting. We had no idea what it was about after they stopped speaking in English. I could understand all of it but I'm not going to listen since its a bunch of digressions and philosophy. Also, most of the important decisions are made in English. So. If its being discussed not in English, chances are there is no one important enough there to make a decision. :P
Monday, November 15, 2010
It's only Monday....
Usually Mondays are like a free holiday for me. Well, not all the time. But usually I do schedule my doctors appointments or annoying errands on Monday, knowing that I would have more time to handle them. Well those precious days are over! Mondays are now as stressful as my every other stressful day!!
I don't think I would mind stressful days so much if I didn't feel like I was always ninja'ed that I have to handle a new project... or, if I could just get some definite answers in the beginning of the project, or maybe some pointers at the best way to handle it -- I don't think I would be so stressed out. I really hate doing anything wrong. I hate it. I always have to be right, I always have to do everything to the best of my ability -- so when I don't have enough information to do that I feel stressed out.
Unlike the events I plan myself where I can go and demand answers from everyone and anyone I feel like, I unfortunately can't do that in certain situations so I don't know what to do. And I HATE not having the answers.
Ah well...
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Bohemia
That's basically where I am. And I like the music here. I think I'll come back and visit.
There's a coffee shop here with GREAT coffee that I used to frequent a lot. It's called DANs.
However, as business picked up, so dropped its quality. The coffee is still great, but the service isn't as quick as it used to be, and the servers attitude has become defiant, probably because they no longer need to beg for business since they're always full.
If I ever open my own business, I will never be a bitch to my customers. Only the ones that deserve it. :P
Don't worry, I'm not an entrepreneur, I hate customers and they're always wrong because I'm always right. If I want to serve you slop you eat it, bitch. I'm the boss of you.
Anyhoo.
I came here to do some work but of course ended up procrastinating. At least we switched to a less busy cafe. D came and ate dinner with me, then left for a client dinner so now I'm all by myself, watching people walk by. I really like this place -- minus the 5 billion tourists. I know it's not their fault that they're so fucking n00by but fuck stop being such a fucking n00b!! I say in my head.
It's funny that the waitresses in front of me are talking about ChinaJoy. That was months ago.
I love people watching. Japanese people to my right, talking about whether or not they like their lives in Shanghai. Some dude across from me reading a book -- careful dude, the lighting is so dim you're going to go blind. Some customer annoyed the place only takes cash -- "Where's the ATM??!"
I saw a friend today. He was with a girl, and just passed by and we said hi. He said, "I haven't been around, been traveling and getting the hell out of here." "Oh? What's the matter?" we said.
"This place sucks. I'm going to move. It's the same group of guys. Getting into fights with also the same groups of guys. Sometimes new guys come, and they get into fights with them too. So fucking stupid. I'm tired of this small ass group, these people."
"How long have you been in living here now?"
"Almost 2 years."
Ahh.... that explains everything. The 2 year crisis, where you realize that living here sucks when you can't find a group of close friends. Close friends are hard to find here. People are fake and stupid, stuck in their own little bubbles, insignificant lives.... when you're tired of clubbing, partying, hoes, sluts, drinking.... and you look for deeper meaning and fulfillment.... its hard to find here. People are shallow. It's Vegas with even less rules. Money goes a lot farther here. You can imagine what life is like, how much debauchery there is, Welcome to Never Never Land....
But congrats to him though. He recognizes what it is... people tend to grow cynical when they realize what is really happening around them. Bravo for him for realizing how shallow the ties here are. I hope he finds some better friends too. Some more intellectual people who he can find common ground with. Because I see so many people here stuck as if its still the first 6 months of their adventure here. As if they're still in high school. Drinking everyday. Fighting everyday. And for what? KTV hoes. So sad. I wonder when they'll realize how big the void is in their hearts that they're really trying to fill with all this partying, hoeing around, and drinking.
There's a coffee shop here with GREAT coffee that I used to frequent a lot. It's called DANs.
However, as business picked up, so dropped its quality. The coffee is still great, but the service isn't as quick as it used to be, and the servers attitude has become defiant, probably because they no longer need to beg for business since they're always full.
If I ever open my own business, I will never be a bitch to my customers. Only the ones that deserve it. :P
Don't worry, I'm not an entrepreneur, I hate customers and they're always wrong because I'm always right. If I want to serve you slop you eat it, bitch. I'm the boss of you.
Anyhoo.
I came here to do some work but of course ended up procrastinating. At least we switched to a less busy cafe. D came and ate dinner with me, then left for a client dinner so now I'm all by myself, watching people walk by. I really like this place -- minus the 5 billion tourists. I know it's not their fault that they're so fucking n00by but fuck stop being such a fucking n00b!! I say in my head.
It's funny that the waitresses in front of me are talking about ChinaJoy. That was months ago.
I love people watching. Japanese people to my right, talking about whether or not they like their lives in Shanghai. Some dude across from me reading a book -- careful dude, the lighting is so dim you're going to go blind. Some customer annoyed the place only takes cash -- "Where's the ATM??!"
I saw a friend today. He was with a girl, and just passed by and we said hi. He said, "I haven't been around, been traveling and getting the hell out of here." "Oh? What's the matter?" we said.
"This place sucks. I'm going to move. It's the same group of guys. Getting into fights with also the same groups of guys. Sometimes new guys come, and they get into fights with them too. So fucking stupid. I'm tired of this small ass group, these people."
"How long have you been in living here now?"
"Almost 2 years."
Ahh.... that explains everything. The 2 year crisis, where you realize that living here sucks when you can't find a group of close friends. Close friends are hard to find here. People are fake and stupid, stuck in their own little bubbles, insignificant lives.... when you're tired of clubbing, partying, hoes, sluts, drinking.... and you look for deeper meaning and fulfillment.... its hard to find here. People are shallow. It's Vegas with even less rules. Money goes a lot farther here. You can imagine what life is like, how much debauchery there is, Welcome to Never Never Land....
But congrats to him though. He recognizes what it is... people tend to grow cynical when they realize what is really happening around them. Bravo for him for realizing how shallow the ties here are. I hope he finds some better friends too. Some more intellectual people who he can find common ground with. Because I see so many people here stuck as if its still the first 6 months of their adventure here. As if they're still in high school. Drinking everyday. Fighting everyday. And for what? KTV hoes. So sad. I wonder when they'll realize how big the void is in their hearts that they're really trying to fill with all this partying, hoeing around, and drinking.
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Bliss
Appropriately titled, this little lounge on Jin Xian lu kind of serves as a little after work escape for me. I have been rarely out and about in this area for a long time, but since I haven't seen the girls in awhile I felt I'd show up for dinner. Plus, a mutual friend was visiting so a dinner was set up.
I know I haven't left yet but I'm already starting to miss all these little conveniences. It must be a similar lifestyle in New York, where you can just take a taxi anywhere you want and not have to worry about driving, traffic, or parking.
Everyone at dinner today has work that is somewhat related with technology and trends. It seems somewhat of a given... since we did grow up in this generation. I read an article lately about how your job is most likely obsolete if you're not proficient with a computer. Ain't that the truth.
I don't even think I can separate myself from one for more than a few hours.
Work has been pretty crazy lately. When I get in the morning, I feel like my soul has been sucked dry by 2p.m. I sometimes wonder how other people's days are. I know we're a busy company, but it's so hard to explain the different kind of "busy" we are... versus... advertising, or marketing, or events.
I'm constantly looking at technology and trying to see if things can work with each other. I guess its 24 hour problem solving. I hated word problems during math class, and I hate the Rubiks cube, as well. Maybe thats why my brain is so tired by 2p.m.
Which is why I'm even happier there are places like Bliss. I can just sit down, talk to my friends, and relax. De-stress, chill, unwind a bit before I go home and go to bed, and wake up and tackle the same thing all over again the next day.
Sure it's fun living in a big city. But with your family all overseas, it's hard to unwind by yourself sometimes. That annoying feeling called "loneliness" kind of fucks it up.
I know I haven't left yet but I'm already starting to miss all these little conveniences. It must be a similar lifestyle in New York, where you can just take a taxi anywhere you want and not have to worry about driving, traffic, or parking.
Everyone at dinner today has work that is somewhat related with technology and trends. It seems somewhat of a given... since we did grow up in this generation. I read an article lately about how your job is most likely obsolete if you're not proficient with a computer. Ain't that the truth.
I don't even think I can separate myself from one for more than a few hours.
Work has been pretty crazy lately. When I get in the morning, I feel like my soul has been sucked dry by 2p.m. I sometimes wonder how other people's days are. I know we're a busy company, but it's so hard to explain the different kind of "busy" we are... versus... advertising, or marketing, or events.
I'm constantly looking at technology and trying to see if things can work with each other. I guess its 24 hour problem solving. I hated word problems during math class, and I hate the Rubiks cube, as well. Maybe thats why my brain is so tired by 2p.m.
Which is why I'm even happier there are places like Bliss. I can just sit down, talk to my friends, and relax. De-stress, chill, unwind a bit before I go home and go to bed, and wake up and tackle the same thing all over again the next day.
Sure it's fun living in a big city. But with your family all overseas, it's hard to unwind by yourself sometimes. That annoying feeling called "loneliness" kind of fucks it up.
Okay, so I'm a slacker
When I moved here in 2003, I thought I was only going to be here a month. It's been almost a decade.
I used to have a blog that I updated at least 1x a day. When it broke it got deleted from the internetz and I never bothered to blog again. Also, back then, blogging wasn't as mainstream. There was no blogger, no livejournal, I don't even know if myspace was popular yet, though I remember Friendster did exist. Either way, I stopped blogging when my previous space in the internet abandoned me.
Since I won't be living here forever, I think I'm going to start blogging like I used to again. I think what happened was that, over the years, I did start to blog again, however because everyone and their mothers started to be more proficient with the internet, and myspace and facebook blew up, it was hard to really keep blogging since a lot of the stuff I wanted to write offended a lot of people. It's been almost 10 years since I really kept a blog. So, since I'm going to start again, here's a Fuck You to all of you that may get offended one way or another. :)
I used to have a blog that I updated at least 1x a day. When it broke it got deleted from the internetz and I never bothered to blog again. Also, back then, blogging wasn't as mainstream. There was no blogger, no livejournal, I don't even know if myspace was popular yet, though I remember Friendster did exist. Either way, I stopped blogging when my previous space in the internet abandoned me.
Since I won't be living here forever, I think I'm going to start blogging like I used to again. I think what happened was that, over the years, I did start to blog again, however because everyone and their mothers started to be more proficient with the internet, and myspace and facebook blew up, it was hard to really keep blogging since a lot of the stuff I wanted to write offended a lot of people. It's been almost 10 years since I really kept a blog. So, since I'm going to start again, here's a Fuck You to all of you that may get offended one way or another. :)
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Hard Decisions
According to my horoscope, it's natural for me to be bad a making decisions. I can't decide between donuts or bagels, chocolate or coffee. They're both good. How do I decide? Why do I have to decide? Why not just take both?
最近发现要做的决定越来越多，越难越可怕。
最可怕的是，难道牺牲的人一定是我吗？不是两个人都要一起牺牲吗？ 为什么我重视觉得亏的人是我？
私は嘘を聞きたくない。そういう意味じゃないです。私は聞きたいのは愛。 どんなに大変になっても、どんなにいやになっても、そばにいてくれる。そういう事は聞きたい。たぶん、あなたはいつか我慢も出来なくてあきらめたい。でも今なら、そいう事を言ってくれれば、私は貴方に走ていける。
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
It's so confusing to be a woman
Previously, we were supposed to work hard so we can get into the top positions coveted by men, and usually given to men. Now we're not? Why are women so confusing?
Why I envy Generation Me who choose love over career - and children above status
The Case for Women Who "Opt Out" of Careers for Families
Women are happy without men
Which is it??? Seriously! Make up your damn minds.
Why I envy Generation Me who choose love over career - and children above status
The Case for Women Who "Opt Out" of Careers for Families
Women are happy without men
Which is it??? Seriously! Make up your damn minds.
Moganshan
I went away, far from the city for a few days this past week. I saw a lot of old, poor people in homes, living in pretty bad situations. But perhaps they were happy? I saw lots of old ladies just sitting there watching their old black and white TVs, watching old war movies. Reminded me of my grandma, when she was still here. We would watch "Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Ying Tai (Butterfly Lovers)" over and over everyday. She would sing along, too.
Moganshan is famous for its bamboo. I was hoping to run around in it, but they were so densely populated that I would have been difficult to manuever. I did almost go down the bamboo hiking path but with the ground so slippery and covered with weeds I was afraid I'd fall down the mountain and never be found. I'll upload some photos later, when I have time.
There were a lot of other trees mixed in with the bamboo, but this is what it looked like, for the most part:
I needed some time away to do some thinking, to clear up my mind a little... I think I've figured out what has been frustrating me, and what I've been scared of so I couldn't make my move. Now that I know what it is... I still don't know what to do. /sigh
Moganshan is famous for its bamboo. I was hoping to run around in it, but they were so densely populated that I would have been difficult to manuever. I did almost go down the bamboo hiking path but with the ground so slippery and covered with weeds I was afraid I'd fall down the mountain and never be found. I'll upload some photos later, when I have time.
There were a lot of other trees mixed in with the bamboo, but this is what it looked like, for the most part:
I needed some time away to do some thinking, to clear up my mind a little... I think I've figured out what has been frustrating me, and what I've been scared of so I couldn't make my move. Now that I know what it is... I still don't know what to do. /sigh
Sunday, September 19, 2010
わたしはまだ一人ぼっちです
You know when you've got a fever almost up to 39 degrees Celsius, was able to pull through a day at work and then working off your blackberry while having the fever in bed, sweating, not being able to feel your legs feeling like you have to vomit, and still responding to work emails you're pretty hardcore. On top of that, sweating through the night unable to sleep and waiting till the hospitals open at 7am, then dragging yourself to the hospital as soon as they open is a pretty hard feat. Then getting plugged up to an IV machine for about 9 hours in some tiny hospital bed watching bags and bags of yellow and clear liquid drip into your body.... well... I did it all by myself. I guess I'm proud of myself. I didn't want to call anyone because I didn't want to waste anyones time, I'm sure everyone is busy with their own lives, I can take care of myself as I have been for the past 7-8 years. Although I'm unsure how much longer I can stay here, it's clearly beating my immune system to bits, it's hard to stay healthy when you're surrounded by so much pollution, germs, bad sanitation, and diseases due to all that I've mentioned.
But because my parents sold their house, I'm also unsure where I can go. I'm not sure I can go back to the US anymore because people are so busy with their own lives. I don't want to be a burden to anyone, or waste people's time. Maybe I'm just stuck here now.
But because my parents sold their house, I'm also unsure where I can go. I'm not sure I can go back to the US anymore because people are so busy with their own lives. I don't want to be a burden to anyone, or waste people's time. Maybe I'm just stuck here now.
Ow. It hurt.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Crumble
Ugh....
I think my body is overheating.
I don't usually get sick in summertime. Well, sometimes. But that's usually in the beginning of summertime when Asia gets super humid and hot and everyone blasts their air conditioning, so your body goes from a really hot and humid environment to a really cold and dry environment. I'm not sure what made me sick but I have a fever now. I can't feel my legs normally, they feel super sensitive to the touch, and it takes a lot of effort to walk. I feel dizzy and nauseous, and I had to force myself to stay at work and finish a presentation document before leaving at 5pm despite feeling the need to leave after lunch.
Now I feel so sick and burnt that I don't think I can lie down, I'm just quietly sitting here.... I hope this goes away soon, I hope it's a one night thing. I hope my entire weekend isn't wasted on being sick. I have a raid to do. heh.
I feel a lot of work pressure lately. I think I'm getting burnt out. Nothing is ever 100% sure. Decisions are never set in stone. Granted, that's the nature of the market or even the industry, but when you're forced to sprint constantly you start to lose your speed....
Monday, September 13, 2010
Fix your Shizz. Nao.
It's been a long time since I've ranted. But I have a good reason to rant today.
Trying to watch movies here is really a hassle.
It’s just so damn annoying to ask them to get one little detail right.
So I’ve been wanting to watch Inception for MONTHs. I had heard so many good things about it, but I haven’t had time to watch it, and it also took months to even get here. Additionally, finally, it was uncensored (because how can you censor something you can’t understand, lol silly rabbits).
So I finally convince a girlfriend of mine to go watch the movie before it goes out of the theatres. And we get there, pay our money, and sit down.
When the movie starts, the bass is so loud, the audio is unintelligible. I had to resort to reading the subtitles to try and understand what was going on, and within 10 minutes, I was getting more and more pissed off. What I had heard was that you need to watch every minute of movie or just end up being confused throughout the rest of it. 10 minutes in I had no idea what was going on and so I figured, okay, I’m going to do something about this. This is not okay. They are not getting away with this. And so, here is what happened, and how effing STOOPID these people are.
Me: Why is the audio so low?
Staff: The audio isn’t low.
Me: Yes, it is. Go listen to it yourself.
Staff: Let me get the manager.
Manager: This is how the audio is intended.
Me: Are you kidding?
Manager: No, this is how we got the film.
Me: You got the film with the audio NOT working?
Manager: All of the movie theatres in this country got the same film.
Me: So all of the movie theatres in the country have their bass turned up in an attempt to make the audio audible?
Manager: ...this is how the film was intended.
Me: So basically you’re lying to my face right now.
Manager: I’m not lying. This is how the film is.
Me: In the entire country?
Manager: Yes, the entire country.
*explodes*
Me: Okay, let me tell you something, you half-wit, THIS is not how the audio is supposed to be. Are you telling me that all audio is supposed to be so low that you have to READ the subtitles to understand what they are saying? And are you telling me that you did not turn up the bass to ridiculous proportions to try and make up for the audio being low? Are you telling me that you purposely turned up the bass SO LOUD that the audience can hear the speakers CRACKING and shaking because its TOO LOUD, and you’re hoping no one is smart enough to notice? Are you telling me that you are UN-AWARE that one of the speakers in this theatre is broken, which is WHY you turned it up this loud, so that you don’t have to close one of the theatres for repair, so that you can STILL MAKE MONEY off of unsuspecting movie-goers? Tell me that is not your effing excuse, right now. TELL ME TO MY FACE, right now, you damned liar.
Manager: I’m not lying, no one else is complaining.
Me: BECAUSE THEY ARE STUPID. I’ll tell you something else. Either you 1) refund my money or 2) fix the damned speaker. And if you decide to refund MY money, you will have to refund everyone else’s money in the audience. Because you know what I’m going to do? I’m going to go right up to the front of the theatre, and I’m going to tell them that you are ripping them off of their money, because the theatre speakers are broken, and you are hoping they don’t notice so you can still sell tickets. Then tomorrow, I’m going to write a review of your SHIT-TASTIC theatre, and post it everywhere on the internet, and also submitting it to magazines, about WHAT A RIP OFF your theatre is pulling, and I’m going to tell everyone to bring back their ticket stubs and get a FULL REFUND for your EFFING scam. Got that? Now tell me, which option are you going to pick.
Manager: You can’t do that!
Me: Why not?
Manager: That’s over the line.
Me: Oh? So you ripping off my money, and everyone else’s money, ISN’T over the line? You lying to us to make money, ISN’T stepping over the line?
Manager: You can’t write that review.
Me: Yeah? So I’ll tell you how you can get me not to write that review. I want you to go upstairs and FIX the DAMNED SPEAKER. Right this effing instant. Get your ass in that little box, and FIX. YOUR. SHIT. The movie has been going on for 25 minutes now, and within the next 5 minutes, I want BOTH speakers working. I WANT IT TO BE HOW THE MOVIE WAS INTENDED. And if you don’t fix it within 5 minutes, you better start looking for another job tomorrow. Get the hell out of my face.
*I sit down, and in the next 5 minutes, the speakers crack a few times, and then wah-la! The audio is doubled, the speaker is fixed.*
Audience: Oh! The speaker was broken! That’s why the sound was so low!
That stupid fking monkey.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Hope
With all the things that humans wish for, I suppose the only thing you can keep for yourself is hope. I hope things come to fruition soon. I hope I am enable to reach my goals, I hope I'm able to find the happiness I'm searching, or waiting for.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Star Wars x Adidas x CLOT
These are cool. Me likes.
I really think clothes define the person. And I think clothes expresses your personality. It might be hard for someone to find their own style in the beginning, but once they find it and keep going with it, it lets you be creative in a completely different way. I love clothes. Especially limited edition ones that are hard to find.
I like what they've done to the shoes, apparently it glows in the dark. Well I sure hope so....! That's the pimpest part of these shoes.
Jeremy Scott is AWESOME. I LOVE THESE. I must have this!!
MUST HAVE. OMG. OMG!!!! HOT!!
I LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jeremy Scott is AWESOME. I LOVE THESE. I must have this!!
MUST HAVE. OMG. OMG!!!! HOT!!
I've been in a good mood
Isn't that odd?
Tee hee.
Actually, it shouldn't be. I usually am in a good mood about 75% of the time. I just choose to rant and rave on this blog because I can. And it's the easiest thing for me to do when I can't rant anywhere else. So too bad! Deal with it!
So I'm going to be doing a lot of traveling soon. I'm excited. This is because my little <3 will be coming with me! And I'm going to be super happy since I get to take him around places I know quite well. I'm going to Tokyo soon for a good friends wedding... I'm really excited about that. The Q4 of any year usually is my most happiest time. Not to mention Halloween is around this time..... I really love it. I'm happy. With so many things going on my life, I'm still stressed, but I'm happy. I'm going to try to accept that some things can't be changed, and I'm going to try to enjoy more, the fact that I am alive and healthy. This is my rare happy blog. I'm sure I'll have something to rant about tomorrow. Maybe if I see an annoying person on the subway I will get all pissed and rant again. Don't get me wrong. I ENJOY ranting. It's fun. I like pointing out and making fun of bad behavior. If you're picking your nose in public, I SHOULD take a photo of you and post it everywhere. :) See you soon, Tokyo!
Peace!
Tee hee.
Actually, it shouldn't be. I usually am in a good mood about 75% of the time. I just choose to rant and rave on this blog because I can. And it's the easiest thing for me to do when I can't rant anywhere else. So too bad! Deal with it!
So I'm going to be doing a lot of traveling soon. I'm excited. This is because my little <3 will be coming with me! And I'm going to be super happy since I get to take him around places I know quite well. I'm going to Tokyo soon for a good friends wedding... I'm really excited about that. The Q4 of any year usually is my most happiest time. Not to mention Halloween is around this time..... I really love it. I'm happy. With so many things going on my life, I'm still stressed, but I'm happy. I'm going to try to accept that some things can't be changed, and I'm going to try to enjoy more, the fact that I am alive and healthy. This is my rare happy blog. I'm sure I'll have something to rant about tomorrow. Maybe if I see an annoying person on the subway I will get all pissed and rant again. Don't get me wrong. I ENJOY ranting. It's fun. I like pointing out and making fun of bad behavior. If you're picking your nose in public, I SHOULD take a photo of you and post it everywhere. :) See you soon, Tokyo!
Peace!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Resigned
Fighting hard for everything you want in your life takes a toll on your mental health. From as early as I can remember, I've fought for everything I've wanted, and I've worked hard for it. But now I'm tired.
I'm going to leave everything up to fate. Whatever it decides, it decides. I'm no longer going to try to change anything anymore. There is no point when obstacle after obstacle comes in your way, no matter how many nights you worked for it, hoped for it, done everything you can to procure it.... whatever will be, will be. I'm no longer going to fight for it. I'm going to detach myself from all this and just be silent. I'm just really tired of it all.
I'm going to accept whatever it throws at me, and just try to keep a glimmer of hope alive.
I'm going to leave everything up to fate. Whatever it decides, it decides. I'm no longer going to try to change anything anymore. There is no point when obstacle after obstacle comes in your way, no matter how many nights you worked for it, hoped for it, done everything you can to procure it.... whatever will be, will be. I'm no longer going to fight for it. I'm going to detach myself from all this and just be silent. I'm just really tired of it all.
I'm going to accept whatever it throws at me, and just try to keep a glimmer of hope alive.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Sigh. 25 years..... of memories
I've lived in this house for 25 years. And though I've lived overseas, I've still considered it my home. I've gone to preschool, kindergarten, middle school, high school, and college all around this area so its full of memories -- happy and sad -- of my entire life.
Now that my family is moving, it's so hard to say goodbye to this house that I've grown up with. I've been dealing with this reality for a few months now, and every day that passes unfortunately does not make the reality any harder to accept.
I don't know if I want to buy another house again, I think I'd be too sad. :(
Monday, June 28, 2010
No more gym
I had been hoping to go to the gym every morning this week, but I don't think I can do it anymore. It's unfortunate, since I had paid so much money for it. Almost $1000usd for the gym that I had only gone to for 1.5months or so. Now that I'm suffering from insomnia, I don't think I can have enough energy to work out for 2 hours in the morning everyday and still go to work.
I've learned so much just in a few hours. I don't think women and men can ever be truly equal. Silly me for thinking that inequality was only something that diseased Asian men. Silly me, for believing ....
I think I might disappear for awhile, be off facebook, blogs, buzz.
Sayonara.
I've learned so much just in a few hours. I don't think women and men can ever be truly equal. Silly me for thinking that inequality was only something that diseased Asian men. Silly me, for believing ....
I think I might disappear for awhile, be off facebook, blogs, buzz.
Sayonara.
強くない。
やっぱり痛すぎて、痛すぎて、もう今のは最後の力。
部屋は寒い。。。エアコンも強すぎて。。。全部は強すぎて、彼のひどい言葉と同じ。
でも彼が言いた言葉はエアコンより寒いと感じてる。
もしエアコンは寒すぎて私は風引いて死んだらどうする？せめてこの苦しみは終われるでしょ。
何、私はなんでこの変な事考えてるの？ 私らしくない。
これは愛、かな。。。
Sunday, June 27, 2010
痛い。
心が痛くて、眠れない。
私を愛してる人は私の事を信じてくれない。
何で？ 私は悪いもの何もしてないのに。
付き合った時、私はがんばって良い彼女になりたいと思った。
メールでも、電話でも、SMSでも、彼が望んだ事私できれば全部あげました。
でも何で？
何で私は悪いこと何もやってないのに私のせいにするの？
強くなれ。 我慢して。
彼は分かってくれる。 話せば分かってくれる。 絶対に。。。
彼が怒る時私の心は痛い。 眠れない。 食べれない。 仕事できない。
何時までこの苦しみが残るの。。。。
私は本当に強い何の？ 自分には嘘つけてるかも知れない。
でも彼のこと本当に愛してるから。。。
私は強い人でわない。 力がないまで頑張る。。。怖いのは。。。最近もっともっと疲れてる。
私を愛してる人は私の事を信じてくれない。
何で？ 私は悪いもの何もしてないのに。
付き合った時、私はがんばって良い彼女になりたいと思った。
メールでも、電話でも、SMSでも、彼が望んだ事私できれば全部あげました。
でも何で？
何で私は悪いこと何もやってないのに私のせいにするの？
強くなれ。 我慢して。
彼は分かってくれる。 話せば分かってくれる。 絶対に。。。
彼が怒る時私の心は痛い。 眠れない。 食べれない。 仕事できない。
何時までこの苦しみが残るの。。。。
私は本当に強い何の？ 自分には嘘つけてるかも知れない。
でも彼のこと本当に愛してるから。。。
私は強い人でわない。 力がないまで頑張る。。。怖いのは。。。最近もっともっと疲れてる。
I don't understand
Why do people ask you for the truth if they can't handle it? Is the best thing to do to lie to them to their face then? I don't want to lie. I just want to answer your question. But can you handle the answer?
If you ask the question, you should be able to. When I asked the questions and I heard the truth, I braced myself for it. I was upset, I was hurt, I was disappointed, but I asked for the answers and I got them. And I embraced it, because I know the truth now, and I'm okay with it.
I don't know how to handle it if I tell the truth but it hurts the person asking it. I just wanted to be honest.
How come I can't ever be right? It's either lie or speak honestly. Shouldn't speaking honestly be rewarded?
I really don't understand at all.
All I know is right now I'm so confused as to whether or not I did the right thing. I always thought that speaking the truth was the correct thing to do.
If you ask the question, you should be able to. When I asked the questions and I heard the truth, I braced myself for it. I was upset, I was hurt, I was disappointed, but I asked for the answers and I got them. And I embraced it, because I know the truth now, and I'm okay with it.
I don't know how to handle it if I tell the truth but it hurts the person asking it. I just wanted to be honest.
How come I can't ever be right? It's either lie or speak honestly. Shouldn't speaking honestly be rewarded?
I really don't understand at all.
All I know is right now I'm so confused as to whether or not I did the right thing. I always thought that speaking the truth was the correct thing to do.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Falling off the diet wagon?
You'll get back on it after you watch this.
And every time you feel like eating, just watch this again.
And every time you feel like eating, just watch this again.
Stoofoo bitches, diaf
I love how people who aren't even a part of a situation stick in their 2 cents about it, as if they've been there the entire time, known about everything for years, watched everything from backstage, heard every single conversation that happened, and then stick in their expert advice. Then they take the side of their friend, as if they know the whole story and understood both sides. Stoofoo bitches, diaf.
Perhaps the story they heard was exaggerated and told leaving out huge chunks of information? I bet it doesn't matter since all they need to hear is one side of the story in the first place, anyway. Doesn't really make me want to meet these people, and if I do ever meet these people, it will be very unpleasant.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Do you wanna ride in my rocket?
Please, get in. >=D
I promise I won't fly straight up 100 miles and then dismount and watch you plummet to your death. I have nothing to do with the little pile of bones you see there. Really.
Troubleshooting
Since Sunday, I have:
1) Run a System Restore (2x)
2) Uninstalled my drivers (2x)
3) Tried 3 different cables off 2 different modems with 2 different laptops
4) Rebooted the system BIOS
5) Run a system wide virus scan
6) Scanned the system boot screen
7) run sfc /SCANNOW in cmd
8) Reinstalled my OS
And nothing has worked. After I had done up to step 7, it was clearly a motherboard problem and NOT an OS issue, since I still had my wireless working AND my drivers were all updated and working. So obviously the ethernet port wasn't connecting with my cable and wasn't reading its existence. The worst thing is, after I told the Alienware technician guy that it's a motherboard problem, he told me that he wouldn't send out a new motherboard UNTIL I had reinstalled the OS. SERIOUSLY? What part of a motherboard defect do you not understand??
Basically he was accusing me of wanting a new motherboard.
What an asshole.
So just to play their stupid game, the OS was reinstalled today and of course the ethernet port still is dead. Now what? Give me my stupid motherboard, you cheapskates!
Monday, May 24, 2010
This is so beautiful
Ahhh.... emails and work on the left, Gaming in the middle, and chatting on the right..... while watching TV on top if you wished. How beautiful is this setup?
I can't wait to move back to the States so I can start setting up my dream "workstation." This is exactly the way I would set it up. That table is also from Ikea... I've wanted to buy it several times but I never had room in the house to put it. But once I get back to the US..... this will become a reality.
My Alienware laptop's ethernet port broke. Which is all kinds of fking FAIL. This means I can't connect to the internet through cable. WTF dude. I have to use wireless, in a place where the internet is already slow as hell? REALLY? Wireless??
Especially for a hardcore gamer.... stable, plugged in connectivity is crucial. It's like the air I breathe. There is nothing more fail than your character raising an arm to do that final finishing blow... and then you get "You have been disconnected." Fking fail, wireless!!!!!! And then that Orc with 200hp left turns around and starts healing himself... WORSE YET... attacking you. And you, in all your epicly overgeared glory, stands helpless with one arm raised... running in place... while a fail noob Orc whittles your 30,000HP away..... fking fail, man.
This must be fixed!!! Damn you, ethernet port. Damn you, Alienware, for costing thousands of dollars and still having shitty quality!! Damn you, Dell, for buying Alienware and using your crap factories that manufacture crap Dells to also manufacture Alienware components, which now also makes it crap quality!! Damn you alllllll!!!!!!!!!!
I am in the process of getting this fixed. And when I am back.... hell hath no fury like a woman and her laptop scorned.
My Alienware laptop's ethernet port broke. Which is all kinds of fking FAIL. This means I can't connect to the internet through cable. WTF dude. I have to use wireless, in a place where the internet is already slow as hell? REALLY? Wireless??
Especially for a hardcore gamer.... stable, plugged in connectivity is crucial. It's like the air I breathe. There is nothing more fail than your character raising an arm to do that final finishing blow... and then you get "You have been disconnected." Fking fail, wireless!!!!!! And then that Orc with 200hp left turns around and starts healing himself... WORSE YET... attacking you. And you, in all your epicly overgeared glory, stands helpless with one arm raised... running in place... while a fail noob Orc whittles your 30,000HP away..... fking fail, man.
This must be fixed!!! Damn you, ethernet port. Damn you, Alienware, for costing thousands of dollars and still having shitty quality!! Damn you, Dell, for buying Alienware and using your crap factories that manufacture crap Dells to also manufacture Alienware components, which now also makes it crap quality!! Damn you alllllll!!!!!!!!!!
I am in the process of getting this fixed. And when I am back.... hell hath no fury like a woman and her laptop scorned.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Home Sweet Home
My family is moving so we are selling the house that I've lived in for many, many, years. This is devastating to me even though I've been living abroad. I've always thought that I would go back and go "home," back to my room, back to that familiar street, back to that familiar city. But even if I go home permanently next year... where do I go? More importantly, since my parents are moving back to Taipei, how do I get my family members under one roof again? Are our gatherings really only limited to Christmas and other holidays? I can't go home just one weekend and see everyone anymore?
That city was my life for so much of my childhood. And even adulthood. I've never thought about not having a home in that city. Even if I moved to another city, I always felt that once I stepped foot in those familiar boundaries I would feel like I belonged.
My home will never be where I am currently living. And I don't want it to be.
It was a shocking decision that we are actually really going to sell the house. We've talked about it for several years but I think we were all hesitant. It's hard for me to believe that this is real, that the next time I go home, I will just be a visitor.
I feel that I've taken for granted all the time that I spent with my family. I always thought that we would be "home" together, that it was good enough. And now that it's going to be gone, those minutes that we all shared under one roof seems so few and far between. If I had moved home years ago, would things be different now? I'm not sure. But I feel like now the minutes and seconds that we spend together will be that much more precious, because there's no longer an endless pool of time.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Chinese Tea
If you go into a little Tea Store and they tell you your complexion looks bad and they say you need some special tea mixture to be more healthy, don't believe them, even if the tea they're trying to sell you costs 20rmb for 10 bags. I don't know what got into me, I just felt like getting some tea and I think I was too lazy to say, "No." 20rmb for 10 bags, why not, right? Anyways, I tried the tea today and the taste is so light I taste nothing but water. I even brewed 2 bags at once. Now I have 18 bags of unflavorful tea.... at least the rose buds inside look pretty floating around.
Odd that I'm saying this, but the tea shops targeted at the foreigners here actually sell much much better tasting tea, and authentic as well. Sorry Mom and Pop shops, I just don't trust you guys. At least not in this country.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Kingdom Hearts, Birth By Sleep
I must get this. It looks amazing.
Usually I don't like to wait for the English versions because of bad dubbing, but when Disney is involved, everything is usually perfect. And looking at the list of actors they have doing the voice recordings, I think I'll wait for this one. :)
http://kotaku.com/5540790/kingdom-hearts-birth-by-sleep-dated-detailed-and-psp-bundled/gallery/
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Pirated DVDs
So we assume that the studio has a leak which is why someone in Russia is able to get a copy of the movie, copy it a few million times, and sell it for $2 on the street to developing nations.
However, where do the subtitles come from?
No, I don't mean the movies with the perfect english subtitles. Usually they're only perfect if the studio also leaked a script, or the movie has been out for a long time already.
My question is, where do the half ass, 80% of the time doesn't make sense Chinese subtitles come from? I'm talking about when I watch movies that just came out a few weeks ago, and there's the chinese subtitle on the bottom. But when you read the subtitle it's not completely translated correctly. The actor could be saying something like, "Yeah, whatever you dumbass. You swear I would do something like that. I'm not down with it." And the Chinese would be translated into, "No, I won't do it. I don't do crime." (But in Chinese).
It's like, who sat there, and could only half understand the English slang, but decided to translate it like that for his countrymen? Is there some dude who sits there in a dark room and watches all the movies and writes his own transcript of the movie? How long does it take him to do it? Does he use urbandictionary? How much does he get paid?
And how does he introduce himself if others ask what he does for a living?
"I'm the guy that translates all the new movies from English to Chinese, except I don't understand all of it so I just translate it however I want by what I think they're saying."
Just curious.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
God, Please give me more time
V FINALLY watched this series after I raved about it for years to her and talking to her about it brought me back memories of it. I think I watched this when I was 18 or so, and it was so touching and really well done that it became one of the best dramas I've ever seen.
It's about this girl Masaki who saved up a lot of money to watch the concert of a composer she really admires. She leaves her purse in the phone booth and it's stolen, along with all the money she saved to buy the ticket. The concert is only a few days away, and she gets influenced by other girls around her age (at that time, this was, and still is, a big problem in Japan) to sell her body to get cash. Unfortunately, the man she sleeps with has AIDs because he's been sleeping around, and passes it to her.
She ends up meeting Keigo (the composer) after his concert by running up the bridge in front of his car and holding up a huge sign she made for him. And then their relationship starts. However, as her friends and family finds out she has AIDs, she loses everyone close to her and has to find the strength to keep living on. At the same time, the paparazzi is following Keigo around, and his singer is in love with him.... and he has to figure out whats more important to him.
I think what makes the story good is that the acting was superb and Kyoko Fukada (who plays Masaki) was only 17 at the time (same age as the character). And Takeshi Kaneshiro (half Taiwanese/Japanese) was good at playing Keigo, of course.
I used to listen to the theme songs over and over and over. I don't think they make dramas like this anymore.
Opening Song
(I for You by Luna Sea)
Drama Theme
(In The Sky by Kudo Shizuka)
Of course, when I was 18, I was so amazed after watching this that people could love each other so much.
lol.
It's about this girl Masaki who saved up a lot of money to watch the concert of a composer she really admires. She leaves her purse in the phone booth and it's stolen, along with all the money she saved to buy the ticket. The concert is only a few days away, and she gets influenced by other girls around her age (at that time, this was, and still is, a big problem in Japan) to sell her body to get cash. Unfortunately, the man she sleeps with has AIDs because he's been sleeping around, and passes it to her.
She ends up meeting Keigo (the composer) after his concert by running up the bridge in front of his car and holding up a huge sign she made for him. And then their relationship starts. However, as her friends and family finds out she has AIDs, she loses everyone close to her and has to find the strength to keep living on. At the same time, the paparazzi is following Keigo around, and his singer is in love with him.... and he has to figure out whats more important to him.
I think what makes the story good is that the acting was superb and Kyoko Fukada (who plays Masaki) was only 17 at the time (same age as the character). And Takeshi Kaneshiro (half Taiwanese/Japanese) was good at playing Keigo, of course.
I used to listen to the theme songs over and over and over. I don't think they make dramas like this anymore.
Opening Song
(I for You by Luna Sea)
Drama Theme
(In The Sky by Kudo Shizuka)
Of course, when I was 18, I was so amazed after watching this that people could love each other so much.
lol.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Wow that's kind of unfair
Who gets to have their cake and eat it too?
Certainly not I.
When you think of what women have to go through, unfair pay, getting pregnant (which ruins the body, causes 9 months of pain and possibly death), and having to work through glass ceilings in their career you think... wow it must suck to have to be born a woman.
And especially in long distance relationships, in the movies we always see women having to move to be near their men. Or, their men either cheats on them, finds another woman, or they break up. Why do men get to be so lucky? Why does there have to be a timeline? A deadline for supposed true "love?" When was the last time you actually heard that a man moved to be near his woman? Oh right... in Good Will Hunting, where he says, "Sorry. I have to go see about a girl."
Yeah, right, in another movie.
It's always the women who have to sacrifice everything for a man. We quit our jobs, move countries, have no income, depend on the men, become depressed and emo and then the man finds another woman and tells us, "You're so depressing. You're just not right for me." If it's supposed to be true love and you really love a person, shouldn't there be no timeline? No deadline? You would be able to wait? If you think about how some women move to Shanghai to be with their expat husbands, all they do everyday is stay at home with the kids. They're unhappy, they can't find jobs, and they just watch as their husbands cheat on them because now they're stuck here and they've already made the decision to move to where their men are. It's a horrible cycle.
What allows the men to benefit off this? What do the women benefit? They get pregnant, their form is ruined, they have been out of a career for a year, when they apply for another job its "Why did you move here?" "To be with my husband." How does that sound good to anyone?
WHY does there always have to be a deadline? If you love someone shouldn't you be able to wait for them? Why are men so selfish? Don't they realize that the woman has to give up everything she stands for? Everything that she represents? Why isn't anything ever enough? They need to stop writing movie scripts like this. It just pisses me off.
Certainly not I.
When you think of what women have to go through, unfair pay, getting pregnant (which ruins the body, causes 9 months of pain and possibly death), and having to work through glass ceilings in their career you think... wow it must suck to have to be born a woman.
And especially in long distance relationships, in the movies we always see women having to move to be near their men. Or, their men either cheats on them, finds another woman, or they break up. Why do men get to be so lucky? Why does there have to be a timeline? A deadline for supposed true "love?" When was the last time you actually heard that a man moved to be near his woman? Oh right... in Good Will Hunting, where he says, "Sorry. I have to go see about a girl."
Yeah, right, in another movie.
It's always the women who have to sacrifice everything for a man. We quit our jobs, move countries, have no income, depend on the men, become depressed and emo and then the man finds another woman and tells us, "You're so depressing. You're just not right for me." If it's supposed to be true love and you really love a person, shouldn't there be no timeline? No deadline? You would be able to wait? If you think about how some women move to Shanghai to be with their expat husbands, all they do everyday is stay at home with the kids. They're unhappy, they can't find jobs, and they just watch as their husbands cheat on them because now they're stuck here and they've already made the decision to move to where their men are. It's a horrible cycle.
What allows the men to benefit off this? What do the women benefit? They get pregnant, their form is ruined, they have been out of a career for a year, when they apply for another job its "Why did you move here?" "To be with my husband." How does that sound good to anyone?
WHY does there always have to be a deadline? If you love someone shouldn't you be able to wait for them? Why are men so selfish? Don't they realize that the woman has to give up everything she stands for? Everything that she represents? Why isn't anything ever enough? They need to stop writing movie scripts like this. It just pisses me off.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Wonderful
In addition to my previous 2 taxi driver stories, I have to say that today I met another taxi driver who took me to the airport. I was thirsty so I asked him to stop at a convenience store so I could buy a drink. And he said, "There's no need. I just bought one this morning. Unopened. Here you go." And I said, "No no, it's okay, if I drink that, what are you going to drink?" And he goes "It's okay, you drink it." And he insisted because my throat was hurting so I finally took it. WHAT a nice guy. So I'm going to ask him to take me to the airport everytime I go to and from Taipei then.
So now I'm waiting to head back to [place]. No matter how modern it looks it's still full of NICE MANNERED PEOPLE (*comment harmonized). I will go back to staying at home and leaving the house as little as possible unless it's night time or to a specific place. I do 0 shopping there, I do 0 walking in the parks, I do absolutely nothing that forces me to be in a mass of people. The only time I go out is at night time when everyone goes home. That way, I avoid what I want to avoid.
I'm using the free internets at the Taipei airport. Free internets ftw! Not only in terms of cost, but in speech. If it was a lifestyle choice I would move back here in an instant. Unfortunately, not everything is so easy and it's near impossible. The wage compensation here is lower than poverty level in the states because of the small market. A market that is always fluctuating near the red. So that means I must come back here and consume more and support the local economy! I always eat at mom and pop shops, I rarely ever go to restaurants in Taipei. There's just no need at all.
I had a nice long talk with my relatives this weekend. About me being where I am, how I felt about it, and my future. I have definitely missed my family. I think I should come back more often. My aunt is getting sick and must go to the hospital everyday to get a health check. My uncle is also very old.... additionally, I wanted to see my grandma this weekend (which is mainly why I came back) but I couldn't because I got sick. With her fragile body it's probably not the best idea.
My friend made a very interesting comment this weekend. He also lives in LOVELY UNPOLLUTED PLACE (*comment harmonized). He said that *someplace was the real *someplace. Love how I harmonize everything? I learned it from the media here.
I hope there are no babies on the plane. At if there are, please have them shut up and be quiet.
I love little boutique stores. I found a nice pair of [gifts] today for my <3. I think it's hard to find elsewhere and there was only one. So I bought it. I hope it fits. It's so adorable.
I want a cat. I want Bob back. Give me back Bob, you asshole.
I gained so much weight in Taipei. I ate everything. Sigh. I would walk by something and smell it, and turn around and buy it. I would see a sign with a bowl of noodles and I would walk there and order something. I ate all day, everyday. I guess it's okay, because there is no food for me back in AWESOMELAND. (*comment harmonized) I will just starve like I always do because I don't eat anything but salad and sandwiches, and I don't eat after 7pm. So usually I just starve. I think of it like a diet.
I went to the clinic today at the airport. The doctor also lived in XXXXX for a bit. She told me that all the dieseases there are stronger so your immune system takes a beating. She told me to exercise more and build up my health so I can fight against it.
I would love to retire in Taipei.
I want to go to Okinawa.
I want to go to the Shaolin Temple.
One thing I think is super awesome is Wuxia Novels. How awesome are those. I prefer them to fantasy and sci-fi novels. I grew up watching and admiring Jet Li. I admire him more than JC. Wuxia novels should be all translated. The reason why I came here is because I wanted to see all the places that the Wuxia novels talked about. Wudan mountain, Shaolin Temple.... I need to go there... soon.
I still have a lot of time until I board.
I saw this article the other day about how Little Emperors these days are the worst, because not only do they get spoiled being the only child, but they grow up to expect everyone else to be the same. They get all the money from the family, and they use family connections to get into jobs. This is why I never hire people with families in the big cities. People from the countryside work harder. It's a fact. Everyone knows this. Granted, there are a few from the big cities from meager backgrounds who work just as hard. But if you were to interview 10 people, the ones from small cities will work harder for you.
I was at another computer where some guy before me changed the browser language to THAI. Then they left their login name on the facebook "name" field and when I clicked "password" it showed the password. What an idiot. I was seriously contemplating logging in and posting all kinds of crap on their facebook to teach them a lesson. But I let my conscience talk me out of it. He'll learn his lesson someday from his carelessness, and I don't want that on my karma.
I recruited 2 more friends to play WoW. I'm so damn good at this.
Hey look, my runny nose and throat pain is gone. Man I love Taiwan. 2 pills and I am no longer suffering.
You have to wonder why people think everyone likes babies. I don't like your baby. I don't think it's cute. Don't show me pictures of your stupid baby. I don't care. All they do is cry and poo and shit. Take it away.
I don't like your baby unless I like you. So the woman sitting next to me on the plane learned this the hard way. Her baby was crying and making a fuss and she kept cooing to it even when it was quiet. Nobody wants to hear your cheesy baby talk. Shutup. I asked the stewardess to change my seat because it was loud and annoying. The baby woman got the point and swtiched seats with her husband. Yeah, that's right. Take your annoying baby and go away. If I ever have a baby I'm not going to fly until he's old enough to understand "Shutup now."
I left a tip for my room service maid lady who kept cleaning my hotel room. I left 100NT worth of coins in a happy face and wrote her a thank you note. I think people who do hard labor like that (well, not hard labor but shes older and I'm sure she has a family) should get reminded that we appreciate their services. Just like the older taxi drivers. They are trying to make a living. I'm sure they have daughters or granddaughters. I just want to support them.
I went to find my favorite potsticker place behind California but the couple weren't there again. I hope nothing happened to them. I really love their potstickers.
I'm so full. I ate too much. But beware, tummy!! Days of hunger loom ahead!! Enjoy digesting clean food while you can.
What's up with French people and FeiYue shoes? Stop buying 1000s of them when you come to GREATEST PLACE ON EARTH. *harmonized
You're making the prices skyrocket and they really aren't worth that much. Silly french people. I like those shoes at 20rmb, thank you very much. Now that you buy hundreds of them and sell them for $$$ back in Paris the price already went up to 30rmb. It's only a matter of time until they're 100rmb each for locally made shoes at the overhead cost of 5rmb. And no, the workers and laborers do not see the money, it goes to the rich owners. So stop it and go buy your crappy Louis Vuitton.
Kthxbai.
So now I'm waiting to head back to [place]. No matter how modern it looks it's still full of NICE MANNERED PEOPLE (*comment harmonized). I will go back to staying at home and leaving the house as little as possible unless it's night time or to a specific place. I do 0 shopping there, I do 0 walking in the parks, I do absolutely nothing that forces me to be in a mass of people. The only time I go out is at night time when everyone goes home. That way, I avoid what I want to avoid.
I'm using the free internets at the Taipei airport. Free internets ftw! Not only in terms of cost, but in speech. If it was a lifestyle choice I would move back here in an instant. Unfortunately, not everything is so easy and it's near impossible. The wage compensation here is lower than poverty level in the states because of the small market. A market that is always fluctuating near the red. So that means I must come back here and consume more and support the local economy! I always eat at mom and pop shops, I rarely ever go to restaurants in Taipei. There's just no need at all.
I had a nice long talk with my relatives this weekend. About me being where I am, how I felt about it, and my future. I have definitely missed my family. I think I should come back more often. My aunt is getting sick and must go to the hospital everyday to get a health check. My uncle is also very old.... additionally, I wanted to see my grandma this weekend (which is mainly why I came back) but I couldn't because I got sick. With her fragile body it's probably not the best idea.
My friend made a very interesting comment this weekend. He also lives in LOVELY UNPOLLUTED PLACE (*comment harmonized). He said that *someplace was the real *someplace. Love how I harmonize everything? I learned it from the media here.
I hope there are no babies on the plane. At if there are, please have them shut up and be quiet.
I love little boutique stores. I found a nice pair of [gifts] today for my <3. I think it's hard to find elsewhere and there was only one. So I bought it. I hope it fits. It's so adorable.
I want a cat. I want Bob back. Give me back Bob, you asshole.
I gained so much weight in Taipei. I ate everything. Sigh. I would walk by something and smell it, and turn around and buy it. I would see a sign with a bowl of noodles and I would walk there and order something. I ate all day, everyday. I guess it's okay, because there is no food for me back in AWESOMELAND. (*comment harmonized) I will just starve like I always do because I don't eat anything but salad and sandwiches, and I don't eat after 7pm. So usually I just starve. I think of it like a diet.
I went to the clinic today at the airport. The doctor also lived in XXXXX for a bit. She told me that all the dieseases there are stronger so your immune system takes a beating. She told me to exercise more and build up my health so I can fight against it.
I would love to retire in Taipei.
I want to go to Okinawa.
I want to go to the Shaolin Temple.
One thing I think is super awesome is Wuxia Novels. How awesome are those. I prefer them to fantasy and sci-fi novels. I grew up watching and admiring Jet Li. I admire him more than JC. Wuxia novels should be all translated. The reason why I came here is because I wanted to see all the places that the Wuxia novels talked about. Wudan mountain, Shaolin Temple.... I need to go there... soon.
I still have a lot of time until I board.
I saw this article the other day about how Little Emperors these days are the worst, because not only do they get spoiled being the only child, but they grow up to expect everyone else to be the same. They get all the money from the family, and they use family connections to get into jobs. This is why I never hire people with families in the big cities. People from the countryside work harder. It's a fact. Everyone knows this. Granted, there are a few from the big cities from meager backgrounds who work just as hard. But if you were to interview 10 people, the ones from small cities will work harder for you.
I was at another computer where some guy before me changed the browser language to THAI. Then they left their login name on the facebook "name" field and when I clicked "password" it showed the password. What an idiot. I was seriously contemplating logging in and posting all kinds of crap on their facebook to teach them a lesson. But I let my conscience talk me out of it. He'll learn his lesson someday from his carelessness, and I don't want that on my karma.
I recruited 2 more friends to play WoW. I'm so damn good at this.
Hey look, my runny nose and throat pain is gone. Man I love Taiwan. 2 pills and I am no longer suffering.
You have to wonder why people think everyone likes babies. I don't like your baby. I don't think it's cute. Don't show me pictures of your stupid baby. I don't care. All they do is cry and poo and shit. Take it away.
I don't like your baby unless I like you. So the woman sitting next to me on the plane learned this the hard way. Her baby was crying and making a fuss and she kept cooing to it even when it was quiet. Nobody wants to hear your cheesy baby talk. Shutup. I asked the stewardess to change my seat because it was loud and annoying. The baby woman got the point and swtiched seats with her husband. Yeah, that's right. Take your annoying baby and go away. If I ever have a baby I'm not going to fly until he's old enough to understand "Shutup now."
I left a tip for my room service maid lady who kept cleaning my hotel room. I left 100NT worth of coins in a happy face and wrote her a thank you note. I think people who do hard labor like that (well, not hard labor but shes older and I'm sure she has a family) should get reminded that we appreciate their services. Just like the older taxi drivers. They are trying to make a living. I'm sure they have daughters or granddaughters. I just want to support them.
I went to find my favorite potsticker place behind California but the couple weren't there again. I hope nothing happened to them. I really love their potstickers.
I'm so full. I ate too much. But beware, tummy!! Days of hunger loom ahead!! Enjoy digesting clean food while you can.
What's up with French people and FeiYue shoes? Stop buying 1000s of them when you come to GREATEST PLACE ON EARTH. *harmonized
You're making the prices skyrocket and they really aren't worth that much. Silly french people. I like those shoes at 20rmb, thank you very much. Now that you buy hundreds of them and sell them for $$$ back in Paris the price already went up to 30rmb. It's only a matter of time until they're 100rmb each for locally made shoes at the overhead cost of 5rmb. And no, the workers and laborers do not see the money, it goes to the rich owners. So stop it and go buy your crappy Louis Vuitton.
Kthxbai.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
I love Taipei taxi drivers
Today I had dinner with some friends and because we ate so much, my stomach hurt! On my way home from dinner the taxi driver knew I had a stomach ache, and proceeded to talk to me about all kinds of things. And before he dropped me off, he asked me if my stomach felt better, and told me he wanted to talk to me to get my mind off my stomach ache and hoped I felt better. So nice.
And 2 weeks ago, I asked to be driven to a store that seemed closed at 11a.m. So the driver came out and asked the other store owners nearby what happened the original store, so I wouldn't have to get out of the car and then be stuck if it was permanently closed. So nice.
What a difference.
And 2 weeks ago, I asked to be driven to a store that seemed closed at 11a.m. So the driver came out and asked the other store owners nearby what happened the original store, so I wouldn't have to get out of the car and then be stuck if it was permanently closed. So nice.
What a difference.
Friday, April 30, 2010
I'm Sick
The last two days I've been running on about 4-5 hours of sleep each night. And I haven't been sleeping well. I was wondering when I would get sick... and it seems... NOW!!
What a horrible time to get sick, right when I'm about to travel!
What a horrible time to get sick, right when I'm about to travel!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Pesticides!
Living here for so many years has gotten me pretty paranoid about the food I consume. I don't go eat in holes in the wall, I don't eat at cheap crappy looking restaurants, I don't eat super greasy or oily food. In the past year, my diet has been limited to mostly salad and vegetables, and some chicken. In fact, I order the same chicken salad from the same expat owned place. That's been my diet for the past year. It's not because I don't want to eat other things, it's just that I really don't trust where the food is coming from.
Of course, it's not as if I'm *that* much safer eating at expat restaurants, since they most likely have similar suppliers. I'm just hoping that there is more moral dignity with the American owned restaurants that they are more stringent with their food quality checks and preparation. Some of the restaurants I go to are also owned by friends who care about this so at least I feel safer.
I can't wait to move home and not have to worry about this. Someday I plan to have kids and I want my body to be HEALTHY!!
When are these people going to stop caring about profit and be a little bit more responsible? And when are laws and punishment actually going to be enforced to deter people from being overly greedy? Sure it may not work all the time but at least it will prevent more farmers and corporations from exploiting the consumers.
Of course, it's not as if I'm *that* much safer eating at expat restaurants, since they most likely have similar suppliers. I'm just hoping that there is more moral dignity with the American owned restaurants that they are more stringent with their food quality checks and preparation. Some of the restaurants I go to are also owned by friends who care about this so at least I feel safer.
I can't wait to move home and not have to worry about this. Someday I plan to have kids and I want my body to be HEALTHY!!
When are these people going to stop caring about profit and be a little bit more responsible? And when are laws and punishment actually going to be enforced to deter people from being overly greedy? Sure it may not work all the time but at least it will prevent more farmers and corporations from exploiting the consumers.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Turtles. I want.
I said I would go to sleep early tonight. 10p.m.
Except then I tried to play FF13 on my PS3 and after 2 hours of downloading I'm still at 14%. I wonder what is up with the internet speed? Oh yeah, no reason, just the GFW. Forgot about that.
Then I told myself I'd just do one daily on WoW, and got stuck looking at J's new turtle mount he got while fishing. He looks ridiculous as a paladin on that. Show off.
/goes fishing
Except then I tried to play FF13 on my PS3 and after 2 hours of downloading I'm still at 14%. I wonder what is up with the internet speed? Oh yeah, no reason, just the GFW. Forgot about that.
Then I told myself I'd just do one daily on WoW, and got stuck looking at J's new turtle mount he got while fishing. He looks ridiculous as a paladin on that. Show off.
/goes fishing
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Yay! BoA Bump Bump Dance Edit!
I was wondering when this version would come out! w00t!
I love the style in this video. And I love this song to bits.
I love the style in this video. And I love this song to bits.
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