Huh...?

I have tried so hard.  And it doesn't seem like it's enough. What does it take to be understood?  Of course I want things to be simple and happy.  But life isn't that easy.  I take it in stride, I make the best of what I have, and I keep positive thoughts that it's just a matter of time, and if I can pull through it then it will all be waiting for me when things come together.  When I decide on something or put my mind to it, I work towards it like there's no tomorrow. I don't go back and doubt if its the right path, if it's going to work out, if it's too hard. I just do it. 

I've always thought that if you wanted something, if you loved someone, you would just do it for that person.  But I never thought of what happens when you're the only one that doesn't have doubts.  Maybe it's just easier for me.  Even when I was little, when I decided on something and made that as a goal, I reached it, sooner or later, because I'm not a person to give up.   It doesn't help when the other person is judgmental and doubtful.  I try to keep my dreams alive with hope, and also with reality.  But because I believe in something, reality isn't something that destroys what I'm hoping for. 

I just want us both to stand on the same side and fight for the same thing.  It's hard for me to do this alone, and it's hard for me to do it when I feel I'm always misunderstood. 

WTF

I can't fukin sleep.
Because my apartment smells like fukin mushrooms and burnt metal.
Mthr fuking fukin FUCK.

FUCK.

I Love Amanda Tanen

She is the best part of "Ugly Betty," imo. Hilarious.

I find her sooooo funny.  Loves it. 

Were you saying something? Your mouth was moving and you were looking at me, but all I heard was 'blah blah blah'

[Amanda is about to show Daniel the DNA test]

Amanda Tanen: You know, even if this does come out positive, it only makes us half brother and sister. So if we did it 20 times, it was only wrong 10.

Marc: I'm not mean to you!

Amanda: You told me my head was too big for my neck!

Marc: That was constructive criticism!
Amanda: And what am I supposed to do about it?!

Amanda Tanen: [Betty is taking a picture to put on an online dating site] Head down, shoot from above, get those bangs to cover those caterpillars, and hide your chins by doing this
[puts both hands, touching at the fingertips, under her chin]
Amanda Tanen: , and for God’s sake, lose the glasses.
Betty Suarez: Amanda, I wear glasses, I'm not gonna lie.
Amanda Tanen: Whatever, but guys don't make passes at girls who are fat.

Betty Suarez: [Betty checks her profile on a dating website] Christina, look! I have responses to my profile!
Christina McKinney: 15 of them! First one's from ILoveTacos.
Betty Suarez: I love tacos!
Christina McKinney: Then ILoveChurros.
Betty Suarez: I love churros!
Christina McKinney: Then ILoveTortillas.
Betty Suarez: [realizes all of these are fake] Amanda, you're not funny.
Amanda Tanen: [walks over] I'm a little funny.

[Betty and Henry are trying to have a romantic moment in the copy room]
Amanda Tanen: Who is hogging the -?
[gasps]
Amanda Tanen: Oh, dorkus interuptus.
Betty Suarez, Henry Grubstick: GET OUT!
Amanda Tanen: [exits] Hey, everyone, Betty's in heat!

Amanda Tanen: [on phone] If I can't pay my bill, then I can't pay my rent, and if I can't pay my rent, then how will you send me my bill? See, this is actually all for you!

Blogger should let us post videos

Because I want to link the song and play this video, because it's so awesome. Well the video isn't the most awesomest but I do love the song lots.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDdGUuWxXGE

S.H.E. finally went back to their roots and sang a Taiwanese song.

I have their entire album and it's not bad at all. In fact I think it's their best album since they've debuted.... maybe 10 years ago.

I really love this song.

Hard day in the corporate world

WoW. Today was really stressful.  I had a meeting scheduled at 5 p.m. that went on until 8 p.m.  This was after everyone was informed that it would be short.

I don't know if I'm a part of the problem in today's corporate world, but I sure hope not. I'd like to think I'm proactive about enough things to keep projects moving forward. 

In my previous company, 10 people would sit on their ass and surf online all day.  I don't know what they're surfing considering they can't really access anything behind their "net nanny."  I, on the other hand, can access whatever the hell I want.  Even during those times that I can't, I go to the cached versions and day dream.

What am I talking about!?

Oh, yeah.

Well, looming in my face is about 2 weeks of OT and then 2 months of hard hard work. 

Sigh..... I wonder when things suddenly became urgent... oh yeah... at 5p.m....

God of War III

This game looks awesome.  I think I will buy it.  However, I like to do things in order, so first I'll have to finish playing my FF13, then finish my Bayonetta, then finish my God of War III. I don't like leaving things started and not finished. Just not the way I like to operate.

With that said, how awesome do the graphics look??

Ah, so pretty to stare at, and play for hours and hours.  I enjoyed Heavenly Sword back then when it came out too, because it was pretty and had awesome finishing moves.  It took me 3 days to beat the final boss. He was a bastard.

Anyhoo, so back to GOWIII.  It looks like the battle design is going to be consistent with the previous 2 GOWs... which is fine for me. If it ain't broke, don't fix it, right?  The story also continues where it left off in GOWII, where Kratos is still trying to kill his Father, Zeus.  Can you even KILL Zeus?!  You can't!! At least in the hundreds of Greek Mythology books I read said that Zeus couldn't be killed.  Those scheming Gods, they always find a way.

Bad Romance

I love this song. Lady GaGa is a great entertainer. And I love this song, Bad Romance. I listen to it all the time. I can listen to it all day, in fact, I have!! haha.

She's not singing about anything profound -- just about men and women wanting different things.
But it's funny how men and women think so differently.

People can want the same things but approaching it drastically differently.

It's confusing and sometimes, disappointing. Other times it could be a better option.

Meh. I'm tired.