最近

最近我的生活好奇怪。 我糊里糊涂的，东摸摸，西摸摸，走到现在，都两周了。  我可以的。我没有问题的。 应为我的朋友跟家人的爱，我可努力度过一个非常痛苦，非常非常黑暗的两周，让后我现在已经可以一个人又站起来的。 

其实，有一段时间我自己也知道，我自己不愿意面对事实，但是现在我看的清清楚楚了。  我之前的想法是错的。我之前要的不是我应该要的。 我是强的。

The scars of your love
Remind you of Us
They keep me thinking
That we almost had it all

The scars of your love
They leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could of had it all
Rollin in the Deep

You had my heart inside your hands
And you played it
To the beat
We could of had it all

你

You just lost the best thing that ever happened to you.

分手快乐

我什么都不能说，只能说你一点良心都没有。

不懂爱情的人，不应该去爱别人。你爱人的方式，真的太痛苦了。

I love you all!! You know who you are.

Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Live life, because tomorrow's not guaranteed to anyone.

朋友是什么意识？

谢谢大家的支持。 连住在同一栋楼的朋友-两年没见了 --你们感觉到我需要你们，你们就来了。 谢谢。 我不会让你们失望的。

我的耐心是有限制的。

I wish some of my friends can see the amazing beauty I see in them...and choose men that can see it too.

真的不懂

我有时候真的不懂男人在想什么。 我也真的不懂为什么他们重是喜欢去追。追追追让后追到了以后，你对他好了以后，他又变的冷漠莫的。 女人的命真苦。我们永远是被追，让后把心给他了以后他又不要了。 我们是做了什么东西去让我们的命这么痛苦啊？ 我搞不懂。

爱也好麻烦。如果我可以控制的话，我会选这一辈子一个人可以过得高高兴兴的，再也不要去爱，在也不要一下幸福，一下伤心。如果我可以的话，我希望我可以就爱我自己，要生孩子的话可以自己生，希望在我脑经里面可以完全把爱这个概念全部灭掉，不知道爱是什么，不需要爱去活得快乐。

我已经不知道我该这么办才好。我就只能慢慢想，慢慢一天一天的过。不管我多么的有耐心，不管我多么的有去爱一个人，我的耐心，我的爱，我能给的东西都有限制的。 如果我的爱是被别人拿去玩的，不是珍惜的，我不会让我自己一直被这样的伤害。

这就是我今天的伤心。为什么我会让别人这样的对付我？

It's all in your head

I am doing the work of about 5 people.  Those 5 people don't need to do as much work because I do it all for them.  I'm tired.

I was talking to a friend today, and he told me that when you miss work, somehow it will fix itself.  But when you miss things with your family for work, you will never get that time back.

That is so true. And it scares me so much I'm speechless.

For all these years, I've been looking ahead to what I want to create, what I want to accomplish, what I want to stand for.  But I've always forgotten to look back.

I can't wait to start my change.  I just need a few more tiny things to come together and I'll finally have righted so many wrongs I've done.