Two ships passing in the night

Communication seriously takes so much effort! At home, at work,everything takes sooo much effort. When i get home lately, i just end up silent watching random videos on youtube. sigh.

The time to start is now
and i can show you how
come with me and ill let you see
a bigger the world than before

All the Small Things

Cherish what you have.
Cherish your time with the ones you love.
Any moments, big or small, that you can share with them should be precious.

Do not overlook or forget the fact that you are already luckier than most of those in this world, who are starving, dying, or suffering.

We tend to forget how important all the small things are.

This WORKS!

I have used this for 6 months. It works every time. And I must say, besides L'Occitane products, and some Origins products, I have never had a product work this quickly... I mean, instantly, after I washed it off.

Pretty amazing and totally worth the money.

Problem is, now that I've run out, I'm going to have to wait till I go back to the airport to buy some more. This stuff ain't cheap!

Calm Down!

Finalllllllly.  Wow what a roller coaster ride these last 3 months have been! My stress levels have really been put to the test.  I realized that I spend a lot of time just observing during the day.  Usually people get off work earlier in the US (since there are laws for OT), but here, we don't. So I spent a lot more time at work, and a lot more time being silent about work since not many people even know what kind of work I do, and explaining it makes me tired.

So there's a lot of stress that I keep inside.  I've started running even though I hate running.  I eat more fruits and vegetables.  I go to bed earlier, I wake up earlier.  I'm hoping this change in my life will keep me on some sort of healthier cycle so I can better cope with the everyday stress.  So far, it seems okay.

Trips to Xian and the other places I mentioned haven't materialized yet.  But I will make it happen soon.

I'm excited.

What do you want?

I need to do some soul searching. I feel like in China, I have to do this every few years to make sure I'm going down the track that I want to go down.  Why is everything so distracting, in China? I don't think it's really China. I think it's just Shanghai.  There are beautiful places all over China where you can just sit down, enjoy the fresh air, and enjoy the beauty that nature offers you.  But in Shanghai, you can't. So most people start looking for distractions to keep them from thinking about the inevitable.  It's a way to escape.  I think people do this in any highly populated city that has very little nature.  New York, probably, as well.  But Shanghai has very, very little nature.  It might even be seen as oppressive.

So I think I need a refreshing look on my life, I think I need to head out somewhere and explore what I really want.  I want to come back feeling like I still have a goal, like I've been reborn.

Yunnan, Shangrila, Chengdu, Xian, Terracotta Warriors, even the fake Shaolin Temple... I want to see everything.  I want to finish what I initially came to China for, what I have been wanting to do and see since I was a kid.  I want to see the greatness that I believe is China. I want to leave all the turmoil behind, I want to leave all the uncertainty at it's origin and be free from all its drama.

Cold and Patient

I'm trying to be patient.  I am by nature, very impatient and very eager to know the result of anything, and I like to get things done. That's why when things don't fall under my control, I get antsy, anxious, and nervous.  I think it takes a toll on my health. 

Note to self: Stop giving a shit.


I think that's a good mantra for me to have, and to practice.  There are so many things to take care of everyday, you can only do so much... and when things aren't under your control .... maybe it's good to just stop caring.  Find another way around it. 

I like to plan everything.  I need to try to accept that not everything can fall under my timelines.  Unfortunately, this works best when other people have the same mentality. But most don't, which is why it's such a hard mantra to practice.


Patience, Acceptance, Go with the flow.

Oh Dilbert, you speak my mind

Dilbert.  He hears me.